Blaaaah...

Every year at this time I get this same blasted cold usually landing me in the hospital.  I *thought at first that I was going to slide by this year but nooooo...then I thought "Hey at least I'm staying out of the hospital and recovering at home"  Well...let's hope...now I seem to be backsliding.  Ugh...I hate this.

I know what it is.  Until losing Andy this week would normally be the roughest week of my year.  Tomorrow is the anniversary of when both my mom AND dad passed and I miss them incredibly bad.  Until losing Andy I didn't think there was a worse pain one could feel. (BOY WAS I EVER WRONG) But stress makes my illness flare and this is just a really stressful time, I'm already missing Andy more than ever with football season upon us I'm feeling his absence big time add that to the usual extreme stress of this week and...there's our answer to the backslide in my health.

I wish I could be on my bike somewhere warm (not hot) and just ride, take in all the scenery....either along the coast or some where the leave are starting to change.  Be the "Forrest Gump" of cycling for a while.  As long as I can make it to warmer climates before the winter cold sets in I'd be good.

I did want to thank everyone who retweeted my blog about my fundraising ride.  Unfortunately as of yet there have been no offers by anyone to sponsor me and at this point a long ride will likely have to wait til spring if health and funds don't allow me to head out real soon.  It's hard not to take the lack of support in first the walk-a-thon and now this personally.  The sad part is, it's not for us.  I have several other places I can put my own money to have my son memorialized.  We chose the scholarship to help others but if others aren't interested then why waste my and my volunteers time for something that the people it is for aren't even wanting?  I could be working to help extend a rail trail or bring peoples attention to the large number of children who we are losing daily. ( I was astonished)  I guess we will just see and do the best we can.